Best of 2017: Year of Revelation

What a strange year.

For me, it was a year of revelation. I learned a lot about myself, some very personal things. Spiritual things. Things I’ll keep to myself, but it was… life changing. Beyond that it was, as much as it makes me shudder, the year of Trump. Every day something new, something insane, something unbelievable. It was a year with movies that were good, but not great. TV pushing itself (Twin Peaks!) and staying the same. I finally cut cable (kinda), hello Hulu Live, and played a ton of Zelda. 


The biggest takeaway from the year was about believing that life is working for me and not against me. As well as consuming a life paid for in charity. I think I can say that as someone who leads a pretty lucky one. And perhaps that's not what works for everyone. 

But as I embraced the optimism: I found I made more money. I lost more weight. I was happier. I had better sex. I enjoyed life more. Mostly due to great and incredible friends. Growing closer with family. Hi, Dad. And learning to take care of myself. Hello, bath time & fleece onesies.

2016 was a year of division (IMO), a year that divided us as a country, it carried with it an air of negativity. And from the ashes of that dumpster fire of a year (I have a tee-shirt to prove it), we were left to figure out what we wanted. And so while the GOP attempted to take healthcare from the people, the people said FUCK NO. That's emblematic of 2017 to me.

People were awaken to the importance of politics to their day to day life, leading the (hopeful) blue wave this coming November. And that's also emblematic of 2017. Being lost in the woods forces attention to what direction we choose. You suddenly find yourself in need of being present. Being aware of your surroundings. 

When you don't know you're lost, you can wander aimless and follow trails without purpose.

In the wake of 2016, I learned what I wanted out of life more than ever before. I found to balance the good, with the bad. To give as much as I take. And to try and always live in the black when it comes to things like that. And while it sounds like I’m inventing karma, it was an organic experience for me. Sometimes, you can't teach yourself by reading a book. You gotta figure it out in your own terms. Even if it's stuff everyone already knows.

In truth, I've found near real time effects of such karmic living. It's made me a bit more... philosophical about how I walk through my days. In part, I'm sure it's due to the ten year anniversary of my HIV status coming this February 28th, which is still something that feels like a surreal and "none" part of who I am. HIV is still Tom Hanks in the film "Philadelphia." Not the 36 year old who's playing Zelda in his bedroom 'til two in the morning. But, it's something I'm forced to think about daily (thanks once a day pill!) and yet has no bearing on who I am. Or what makes me ... me.

This year, I became more present to my own moods. My decisions. I feel more intuitive than before. More goal oriented. Which made for some really incredible and beautiful moments. Shocking and indescribable moments. As well as some really fucking sad ones. In the end, I feel a life worth living.

But enough of that BS. Here’s some lists. I dig lists:


  1. Dunkirk
  2. Good Time
  3. Blade Runner 2049
  4. Call Me By Your Name
  5. mother!
  6. A Ghost Story
  7. The Little Hours
  8. Ingrid Goes West
  9. I, Tonya
  10. Phantom Thread


  1. Star Wars: The Last Jedi
  2. Get Out
  3. Spiderman: Homecoming
  4. Big Sick
  5. IT
  6. Logan Lucky
  7. Thor: Ragnarok
  8. Kong: Skull Island (don’t judge)
  9. Valarian and the City of a Thousand Planets
  10. Okja


  1. Leftovers (final season)
  2. Better Call Saul
  3. Twin Peaks
  4. Mr. Robot
  5. Veep
  6. It's Always Sunny...
  7. A Handmaid’s Tale
  8. American Gods
  9. Mindhunter
  10. Vice Principals


  1. Zelda: Breath of the Wild (wow)
  2. Mario: Odyssey


  1. Gloomhaven
  2. Time Stories
  3. SeaFall
  4. Mech vs Minons
  5. Crosstalk


  1. Grizzly Bear’s PAINTED RUINS
  2. Spoon's HOT THOUGHTS
  3. Beach Fossils’ SOMERSAULT
  4. Washed Out’s MISTER MELLOW
  5. LCD Soundsystem’s AMERICAN DREAM
  6. Kendrick Lamar's DAMN.
  7. Chad VanGaalen’s LIGHT INFORMATION
  9. Rex Orange County's APRICOT PRINCESS
  10. Mac DeMarco's THIS OLD DOG


  1. "Down the Line" by Beach Fossils
  2. “Trust the Sun” by Elbow
  3. "Loving Is Easy" by Rex Orange County ft. Benny Sings
  4. “Put Your Money On Me” by Arcarde Fire
  5. “oh baby” by LCD Soundsystem
  6. “In Undertow” by Alvvays
  7. “On the Level” by Mac DeMarco
  8. “The World We Found” by Zoot Woman
  9. “First Caress” by Spoon
  10. “Something for Your M.I.N.D.” by Superorganism


  1. SeaFall with Kyle & Joe
  2. Always Sunny Watch Through
  3. “Roper”
  4. Started as Head of Production at FREENJOY
  5. Holly got Married
  6. Magic Castle
  7. Regret Shoot, Last PM Job (36 hours)
  8. “Stan 5.18”
  9. Twilight Imperium: Spring Edition
  10. “John 6”
  11. Mechs & Minions w/ Chris & Jesse
  12. Time Stories w/ Scott & Alison
  13. Blackwood Charter
  14. GenCon50
  15. “Dune 34”
  16. LA County Fair Birthday
  17. The Elevator Game
  18. “Palm 36”
  19. “Emerson & Issac”
  20. Jesse’s Vegas Weekend
  21. Played Zelda: BOTW for nearly 300+ hours
  22. Gloomhaven
  23. The Ethery


  1. Ramadan Attacks
    1. London, Manchester, etc.
  2. Trump Every Fucking Day
    1. Woman’s March Crowd vs Inauguration Crowd
    2. Alternative Facts/Bowling Green Massacre
    3. Muslim Ban
    4. Flynn Resigns, Russian Interference
    5. Session Recuses Himself from Russian Investigations
    6. Covfefe
    7. Comey Testifies
    8. Leaks, Leaks, Leaks
    9. Obamacare Repeal/Replace Fails/Returns
      1. July: Thanks to Collins, Murkoski, & McCain
      2. Sept: Returned and Failed for Good
    10. The Mooch / Priebus / Spicer 10 Day Extravaganza
    11. Escalation of North Korea
    12. The Press Conference
    13. Firing of Bannon
    14. Ending DACA
    15. “Rocket Man”
    16. Democratic Election Wins in November
    17. Roy Moore is a Child Molester, loses
  3. Charlottesville Nazi March
  4. Solar Eclipse, 90038 Received 62.3% 
    1. Started 9:05a, Peak 10:21a, Finished 11:43a
  5. Hurricanes Harvey, Irma, and Maria
  6. Earthquake in Mexico
  7. Vegas Shooting, Deadliest in US
    1. No one cared to do something about it…
  8. Death of Tom Petty
  9. TX Church Shooting
  10. #MeToo Campaign
    1. Harvey Weinstein 
    2. Kevin Spacey
    3. Louis CK
    4. … and more